Survey 1

Three things about me of which I'm proudest:
My parenting
My perserverance
That I always try to improve myself

Three things about me that are the hardest to admit:
I can be selfish
I'm demanding
I can be lazy

The quality I see in myself that I can't stand in others is:
Losing my temper

I know way too much about:
Meth, wish I didn't

The surest way to tell I'm happy is:
I get bubbly and talkative

If I were making lunch or dinner to please my inner child I'd make:
Macaroni & cheese

The villain I secretly identify with:
The Wicked Witch of the West....totally relate to her in 'Wicked'

My favorite sad song:
Tuesday's Gone - Lynyrd Skynyrd
No Reason at All - Katie Thompson

My favorite love song:
Just the Way You Are - Billy Joel
Your Song - Elton John

My favorite rock out song:
My Way - Butch Walker

If I could be a genius at one art form I'd choose:
jazz singer

I think the game show I'd be most likely to clean up on is:
Super Market Sweep

The thing I like most about the idea of settling down with some one is:
Working with someone to build a better life.  A partnership.  Sharing experiences with someone.

My biggest fear about getting into a committed relationship is:
Investing my time and my emotions and losing it.  Getting destroyed emotionally.

Three things I wish I'd done differently in my last relationship:
Ended it when I knew it could not be saved
Not allowed certain behaviors I didn't approve of
Not lied about how I felt

The one relationship mistake I never want to repeat:
Cheating

Things an ex did that made it harder for me to trust people:
Hid things from me on a daily basis for several years.  Then when I found out made excuses instead of acknowledging.
Left.  No discussion, no explanation. Left me feeling like I never meant anything and that our whole relationship was a lie.

One thing an ex did that made it easier for me to trust people:
Listened to me and accepted everything, even the stuff that is hard to accept.

The most important thing I learned about relationships in high school:
Every relationship is an entirely different situation and has its own story and expectations.

The most important thing I learned about relationships in my twenties:
Trust, loyalty, and sexual fidelity are 3 very different things.

The most important thing I've learned about relationships in the past year:
Someone being there for you emotionally and being supportive of you means so much more than someone just being physically present in the room.  You truly can feel very alone if the wrong type of person is next to you...and very fulfilled even if the right one is thousands of miles away.

The most important thing I've learned from a past hurt:
I will survive it...one way or another.

The most important thing I've learned about sex:
You are sharing a piece of yourself with your partner and you need to be able to smile and have fun and trust them.  When I can't trust someone there isn't much of a point and I shut down.  Knowing someone cares for me, trusts me, admires something in me matters just as much.  Sex is as much a mental and spiritual thing as it is a physical thing.